If I’ve been running a profitable business and decided to quit that and work a job instead, does that make me a failure?
I think about this on and off.
In the last few months, I’ve toyed with the idea of going back into the media industry. It’s been my main passion for as long as I can remember, and even as I worked on my business, I always had journalist jobs in my peripheral vision. I missed it.
In Whisky Tango Foxtrot, Tina Fey’s character expresses jealousy towards a journalist from a competing news channel who had been at the frontlines of a bomb explosion and had ended up in the hospital. When I watched that scene in the movie, I knew what it was like to feel that way. Bodily harm is tolerable, missing out on the scoop is not.
I recently rewatched Nightcrawler and realised that the first time I watched it, I hadn’t picked up on how creepy Jake Gyllenhaal’s character was. All I saw was a journalist who would do anything to get a story.
For so long, I’ve been like the little mermaid under the water, wanting so desperately to be part of the world above.
Does it make me a failure if I want to try my hand at that again?