Disappear

There are days when I’m tempted to delete my Facebook account. To remove myself from the circle I live in. 

For a couple of years now, I’ve had a strong desire to disappear. To have nothing weighing me down. 

In the movie Up in the Air, George Clooney’s character, Ryan Bingham, is constantly travelling around the United States and pretty much lives out of a suitcase. 

In one portion of the movie, he’s giving a motivational speech (I think) about the unnecessary baggage that we carry around. 

“What’s in your backpack?” he asks, after asking everyone to imagine their entire life and all their possessions in that backpack. 

It’s heavy, obviously. 

“Imagine waking up tomorrow with nothing. It’s kind of exhilarating, isn’t it?” he says. 

When I first heard that speech years ago, it resonated with me. At the time, attachment was something frightening to me. I am a rolling stone, I said to myself. I would keep on moving. 

The idea of being able to live out of a suitcase, and a carry-on at that, is something I constantly dream of doing. 

But James Altucher writes in his book, Choose Yourself, that we “can’t change life from the outside”. Decluttering is something that we have to do across our physical, emotional, mental and spiritual selves. From the inside.

Altucher asks, “The question is: with your current identity, can you live as if you’ve already disappeared?”

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