Sick

What do you do when you’re ill?

If you’re like me, you probably try to power through your day. I’ve learned and am still learning, that it’s not sustainable. It’s not effective or productive. Especially when all your body wants to do is rest.

“I just need to get through today,” I tell myself. And then I tell myself the same thing the next day. And the next.

At some point, my body stops believing me.

It’s not that I’m a workaholic. There are just a lot of things I want to do.

But it’s the times when I’m sick that I wonder if that’s sustainable as well.

And the question that’s been on my mind the last few days is this: how do I combine my wide variety of interests into one thing that will bring me ultimate satisfaction?

Is it even possible? And is it even required?

I’ve been asked countless times to focus. And yes, I’ve somewhat done that by cutting out a lot of things that don’t generate value, by saying no even to things that I desperately want to say yes to.

But what if I enjoy the exploration? What if I want to follow my curiosity down rabbit holes?

Back when I was taking trumpet lessons, someone asked me why?

“You’re not naturally talented,” he said.

I wouldn’t delight an audience, that’s for sure. But what if just playing the instrument (and possibly sucking at it) makes me happy?

And if that’s my goal, wouldn’t that be considered successfully achieving it?

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